Tag: anorexia

Being honest #33

I think it’s funny how no one would notice how tiny I was getting when i first started starving…like no one knew and I knew that I could get away with it…because I’ve always been invisible to everyone..

And here I am starving again after trying to do the recovery thing which made me feel terrible….and still…no one knows..but Oliver but he won’t tell anyone…I’ll always be invisible

Being honest # 32

Everyone says I look tiny…but I think there eyes are broken…everyone says I have hips or whatever…but I think there minds are playing tricks on them…,but I’m actually big boned and fat and I have a bad body type…my hips don’t exist and I have love handles…
I am at 143 pounds today…my goal is to be at 120 pounds as fast as I can be…

Being honest #30

I only had 540 calories today..going to the park later..gonna burn some of it off there..and then more when I help wash the car…doing little things help a lot in the long run guys..remember that..I also had green tea this morning…hopefully I’ll weigh less tomorrow

Being honest #29

I’m actually really fat and bad looking and I have a bad body type and I need some meanspo and inspiration and to be thin..and perfect and beautiful…please I need to get rid of these terrible love handles…I used to be thin and then I gained it all back and now I’m having issues because I’m living with a family that it’s hard to get away with..once my little sister goes to school tho it won’t be so hard…but I need tips too..,can anyone give me some good tips

Being honest #28

I used to look at people’s chins and see how soft they are and how invisible there jaw lines are…and I would always put a thumb under my chin to make sure it was lean..it’s like how Eli from to the bone did with her arm until she got her hand around it..that’s how I’ll know I’m perfect…I will be able to get more than my thumb under my chin and my face and jaw will be angular…the rest of me will look amazing..boney hips and long legs and a small waist and no love handles and a small chest…just how I want to be…

Being honest #26

I flipping binged to much and I need to get my act together…I have a hard time saying no to people when they offer food to me because I feel bad if I don’t…but I feel bad if I do…I need to learn to say no…because I’m a big and gross person…on the bmi charts I’m only a few pounds off of overweight…I need to lose weight badly…can someone send me inspiration…I don’t care if it’s meanspo or tips or whatever ..,just get me going…