Being honest # 19

What the frickity frack am I doing?? I need to be getting better…I have plans and I need to be healthy to do them??? Blllllaaaaaaa but I also wanna be skinny…I feel so biiiiiiiig…but I’m trying to get better…I see the point of life and all that and important stuff….so what the fuck am I doing to myself…uuuuuuh…I’m gonna hate myself later…

Being honest # 18

I want chocolate but I can’t have it I won’t let myself

Are we all secretly anorexic on here?

This is your sign to keep going.

as-lost-as-you-are:

ifonlyiwaslovely:

Maybe you messed up one meal, one day, one week, one month.
Maybe you gained back one pound, five pounds, or twenty pounds.

Start over now.

THIS IS IT. thank you

Being honest #17

I feel so big and gross and I’m jealous of everyone who has hips and a smaaaaalllll waist…I’m a gross human being..

Being honest #16

100 cal inch cheese cube
4 slices of ham 60 cal
Plus dinner I have to make people believe I’m eating and it drives me nuts that I don’t know the calories
Did sit ups and squats today and walked around alittle
I have family to deal with
I’m gonna do more sit-ups tonight

Being honest #15

He doesn’t get it..I’m gross and I need to lose weight..he doesn’t see how bad I look…he never has…so he doesn’t know…I just want to be comfortable with myself and he won’t let me…

Being honest # 14

I screwed up and allowed myself to screw up just when I started I got sucked in into having two weird tacos from some place called balance…the only good thing I probably got out of it was bubble tea that had green tea in it..atleast my terrible metabolism will go up…

Being honest # 13

1 candy rope 45 cal
Bloc of cheese (like an inch cube sorta)115
1 saltine cracker 13
180 for tea
And a piece of lasagna and a plate of salad I don’t know the calories
But I think I did okay today

Being honest # 12

I lost two pounds yesterday playing with my little sister at the park yesterday…I went from 148 to 146 and I got excited…I learn to just keep moving and drink water and stay strong and walk through the kitchen testing yourself not to eat and be aware…