Being honest # 19

What the frickity frack am I doing?? I need to be getting better…I have plans and I need to be healthy to do them??? Blllllaaaaaaa but I also wanna be skinny…I feel so biiiiiiiig…but I’m trying to get better…I see the point of life and all that and important stuff….so what the fuck am I doing to myself…uuuuuuh…I’m gonna hate myself later…