Tag: pro recovery

Being honest # 12

I lost two pounds yesterday playing with my little sister at the park yesterday…I went from 148 to 146 and I got excited…I learn to just keep moving and drink water and stay strong and walk through the kitchen testing yourself not to eat and be aware…

I feel like no one is on tumblr anymore and not a single one of my posts is even seen and I’m here talking to myself and no one will ever know anything about me…but it’s still nice to have the chance to be honest about myself even if no one sees it…cause all I’m putting is my real thoughts and stuff…and all the other crazy mental wrong with me things….and all the fandom reblogs…I may be a sad human but I enjoy things to…which I good I guess…but yeah…this blog is meant for me to be me and I don’t care if no one sees it cause I’m just glad it’s here cause then when ever I feel lost I can find myself in my blog again..

Being honest #10

1 hour of spending time with your little sister at the park chasing her around and swinging as hard as you can = burning a lot of calories and feeling happy and not feeling hungry if you get hot enough and make yourself lightheaded enough…and then you can go home and shower all the sweat and dirt off and curl up and sleep for awhile

Being honest #9

I like to keep track of my calories everyday and make sure I eat less the following day…tomorrow I’ll probably only eat alittle breakfast and pick at my dinner and do some sits ups and feel bad because I’m letting oli down…but making myself feeling better…I’m selfish…

Being honest #7

Right now..it’s honestly really hard and I really want to lose weight..when I’m small and weigh less I feel light and delicate and beautiful and happy and right now I feel weighted down and to big…it would be so easy to get back into old habits…it would be like I never tried to get better at all….I just have to find my self control and never look at food again….it’s easier than most people think…

Being honest #5

I actually hate the way I look with a passion and I mean I really am chubby and gross…you can see my fat through my shirt….most days I wish I was anyone else…I don’t want to be me..,like the way I look…I like me as a person…just..I don’t want this body…