Please don’t mention anything about my weight
I’m trying to recover
just my old blog from tumblr
I’m trying to recover
I’m at 145 pounds officially today
I went swimming and I made sure to keep moving today and did some sit-ups and such…I look better…oh..and I ate dinner…besides for that I’m somewhere between 200 to 300 calories today..which I burned some off swimming…oh and also swinging on the swing set…
I got green tea today and cinnamon pills…I’m gonna get yelllllllllled at….sorry oli….I just wanna be skinny….i also walked around a pond for 30 minutes…that’s all I could get away with…
So I eat alittle and then take a pill and the it do it work…but I’ll only take it when I feel like I’m screwing up and eating to much
And drink the tea when I feel hungry and bla bla bla bla
I’m such a loser
Just did 50 sit-ups
Oli is gonna be mad
What the frickity frack am I doing?? I need to be getting better…I have plans and I need to be healthy to do them??? Blllllaaaaaaa but I also wanna be skinny…I feel so biiiiiiiig…but I’m trying to get better…I see the point of life and all that and important stuff….so what the fuck am I doing to myself…uuuuuuh…I’m gonna hate myself later…
I feel so big and gross and I’m jealous of everyone who has hips and a smaaaaalllll waist…I’m a gross human being..
100 cal inch cheese cube
4 slices of ham 60 cal
Plus dinner I have to make people believe I’m eating and it drives me nuts that I don’t know the calories
Did sit ups and squats today and walked around alittle
I have family to deal with
I’m gonna do more sit-ups tonight
He doesn’t get it..I’m gross and I need to lose weight..he doesn’t see how bad I look…he never has…so he doesn’t know…I just want to be comfortable with myself and he won’t let me…
I screwed up and allowed myself to screw up just when I started I got sucked in into having two weird tacos from some place called balance…the only good thing I probably got out of it was bubble tea that had green tea in it..atleast my terrible metabolism will go up…
1 candy rope 45 cal
Bloc of cheese (like an inch cube sorta)115
1 saltine cracker 13
180 for tea
And a piece of lasagna and a plate of salad I don’t know the calories
But I think I did okay today