Tag: anorexia

Being honest # 14

I screwed up and allowed myself to screw up just when I started I got sucked in into having two weird tacos from some place called balance…the only good thing I probably got out of it was bubble tea that had green tea in it..atleast my terrible metabolism will go up…

Being honest # 12

I lost two pounds yesterday playing with my little sister at the park yesterday…I went from 148 to 146 and I got excited…I learn to just keep moving and drink water and stay strong and walk through the kitchen testing yourself not to eat and be aware…

Being honest #10

1 hour of spending time with your little sister at the park chasing her around and swinging as hard as you can = burning a lot of calories and feeling happy and not feeling hungry if you get hot enough and make yourself lightheaded enough…and then you can go home and shower all the sweat and dirt off and curl up and sleep for awhile

Being honest #9

I like to keep track of my calories everyday and make sure I eat less the following day…tomorrow I’ll probably only eat alittle breakfast and pick at my dinner and do some sits ups and feel bad because I’m letting oli down…but making myself feeling better…I’m selfish…

Being honest #7

Right now..it’s honestly really hard and I really want to lose weight..when I’m small and weigh less I feel light and delicate and beautiful and happy and right now I feel weighted down and to big…it would be so easy to get back into old habits…it would be like I never tried to get better at all….I just have to find my self control and never look at food again….it’s easier than most people think…